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hmmmm, mmm. hmmm mmm, hmmmm mmm...
04.13.05 (6:53 pm)   [edit]
I love it when songs I love get stuck in my head.

*happy humming*
 
blahblahblahblahWell hello there
12.30.04 (12:27 am)   [edit]
not much new on my front.

it's nearly the new year.

isn't that amazing?


i'm having crazy bouts of insomnia. not even tired-to-the-point-of-not -tired just NOT SLEEPING AT ALL. manically awake.

hope all of you had great holidays and happy new years (don't get too drunk, y'all.)
<3>
 
IF...
09.24.04 (6:39 pm)   [edit]

Survey-ish thing I made up using the "Big Book of IF..."


<i>If you were to have Shakespeare to dinner tonight and could invite one other person from history, who would you pick?</i>  I would want to invite Plato, because it'd be really interesting to get the two of them talking about society (during any time frame).  However...I'd rather it be Mark Twain and Plato; that'd be fun.


<i>If you had to name a smell that always makes you nostalgic, what would it be?</i>  The smell of Christmas tree lots...my top favorite thing to do in December :)


<i>If you could have heard the deathbed confession of one person from history, who would you pick?</i>  Well, even though he wasn't on a literal deathbed, or was it a literal confession either, I'd like to have heard Jesus.


<i>If you had to name the subject you took in school that turned out to be least useful or worthwhile, what would it be?</i>  For me, probably..no, most definitely (so far) intermediate algebra.  I don't remember anything.


<i>If you could regulate (or deregulate) somking, what rules would you make (or repel)?</i>  I'd want those "no smoking within twenty feet of a door or window" laws enforced, and no smoking in the outdoor parts (or indoor...for that matter (obviously in other states)) of restaurants.


<i>If you could study one subject in school that you didn't, or wasn't offered, what would it be?</i>  High school drama (wasn't offered).


<i>If you could be on the cover of any magazine next month, which magazine would you want it to be, and what would the caption say?</i>  Time, and "17-year old writes a book that changes everything."  And I'd look hot, too.


<i>If you had to pick the most important quality for a leader of your country, what would it be?</i>  The leader would have to listen. to. the. public.  Everyone, including the "unimportant kids."


<i>If you could change the ending to one movie you have seen, which one would it be, and how would you reshoot it?</i>  I'd change the ending of Gerry, but I won't say how, because hello, spoiler.


<i>If you could reverse the effects of any one environmental problem that we are currently faced with, what problem would you choose to mend?</i>  Global warming.


<i>If you could have any type of fresh cut flowers delivered to your home every week, what one type would you pick?</i>  Brightly colored roses.


<i>If you could go back in time, as yourself, to observe any single event from history, what would you want to witness?</i>  I'm going to go Biblical again... the parting of the red sea would be cool.  Or!  To be completely opposite-end-of-spectrum, Babe Ruth's home run.


<i>If you were instantly able to play one musical instrument perfectly that you never have played before, what would it be?</i>  The cello.


<i>If you had to lose one of your five sense, which would you give up?</i>  ESP(N) (whoever gets the joke and what movie its from gets a prize!)  Well, what do we have...we have see, hear, feel, smell, and taste.  I'd give up taste.


<i>If you could only keep one of your five senses, which would you save?</i>  The ability to hear.  Music, laughter, and the voices of those I love.  (And, if not that, touch.)


<i>If you could become famous for doing something that you don't currently do, what would it be?</i>  Being on stage in musicals.


<i>If your home were to be totally destroyed by fire but you could save just one thing, what would it be?</i>  My bear.


<I>If you could have composed any single piece of music that already exists, which would you choose?</i>  The Moonlight Sonata.


<i>If you could spend a weekend in any hotel in the world with all expenses paid, which hotel would you choose?</i>  Hah.  The Hyatt, downtown San Diego.


<i>If you could say one sentence to the leader of the country you are presently in, what would you say?</i>  Fix things...and take a course on English grammar.


<i>If you had to eliminate one season permanently (spring, summer, autumn, or winter), which one would go?</i>  Spring.  Hands down, no question.  It's just...yucky to me, lol.


<i>If you had to choose someone with you right now to be the president of the United States, who would you want it to be?</i>  My mom.


<i>If you had to choose the worst book ever written, what would it be?</i>  Another easy one:  Jonathon Swift's "Gulliver's Travels." 


<i>If you could have any single view from your bed, what would it be?</i>   The view from my chiropractor's office.  The ocean, the bay, flanked with some of downtown, and the airport. 


het ned.

 
Poetry, photography, thrifting, oh my!
08.28.04 (8:32 pm)   [edit]
So today I went thrifting with Sara. It was very fun, and while I found no shoes (bah!) I found jackets, a shirt, jewelery, coka cola glasses, and...get this...a $4, archaic...archaic!...camera. The poor little thing was stuck in the shoes, they didn't know what to do with it.

It's so much fun! It's so old it a) doesn't tell me how many pictures are taken, b) has no flash, c) needs no battery. I love it. I put a thing of film in (after finally figuring out how) and have taken 13 pictures (that's being kept track of on a sticky note). It's unbelievable how archaic this thing is. Incredible. It's also a ...what would it be called, view lens? You look through the view finder, and its to the left of the actual lens, so you have to compensate by moving the camera...lol. It's WONDERFUL.

So I found (or well, Sara did) a very cute purple jacket, full length sleeves with a built in "hankie" in the pocket. It's cute...lavender, I'd say. I wore it to dinner with my pleated brown, black and pink skirt (cute mix, actually). I also purchased a jacket that is a floral print...a little large, so I'm going to put another button on it and hem it up. Thanks to Sara's help, hehe. Both the jackets were $4. I got hoop earrings for less than a dollar, a very cute pink bracelet with a heart on it for $2, and then my $1 Coke mugs, and my camera. Oh also, I got a beige colored shirt with sleeves that I love, for $3. I'm so picky about sleeves... I hate my upper arms, so my resolve is "when not working on them, cover them up" lol. It's a comfy shirt.

So we went to five thrift stores, from Clairemont to PB to Bay Park. We stopped at "Chipotle" for lunch, which was really yummy (I had two tacos with grilled chicken, salsa, lettuce, etc. on them). I'd never eaten there before, so it was fun. If I ever get a hankering there's one in Grossmont, so yay.

I really overuse the word "so." It's such a useful, annoying connector.

I have to go to Payless to find some shoes, and I still need some shirts, but other than that I think I'm ready for school.

I may need to get a couple of more books, if I end up taking philosophy, but that'll be determined Tuesday. :)


Had kung fu this morning. Guess who was there? Guess who didn't talk to him? Sara got to see him, and she agrees "he's cute." :) And he is. lol.

My family was ragging on me at dinner tonight (Yay, Terra!) about not talking to Mr. Kung Fu. I still think the whole tripping thing (i.e. first grade mentality) would really work. It'd start a conversation for sure. *g*

I keep daydreaming about him. *sigh*
My mom's threatening to talk to Mr. Kung Fu Teacher about Mr. Kung Fu. *shakes head* aie yi yi, my family... :) If it's bound to happen it'll happen, yeah? Yeah.

So homework for the rest of the weekend (now I only have half a page to write about a poem, and to finish Antigone!) and maybe going to payless to find some flats. I was close to getting some today, but they were just a bit too small. Darn my feet for not being 8's! haha

I think I'll go work on my half a page on "Thanks" (By Yusef Komunyakaa, go, read it!) then go to sleep. Later schmators.
 
Cause you'll be making it and making it electric...ooohhh whoa
08.16.04 (10:24 pm)   [edit]
Back from Kung fu!

On a monday night? Yeah, crazy aint it?
We did a lot of shuffling tonight...my feet feel like they're bleeding...oowww.

So, why did miss Something-hurts-do-I-have -to-go-tonight go to Kung Fu on a monday night?

Let's say I have...inspiration now. His name is Mr. ______. I don't know his first name, because we go by last names at kung fu. He's very cute. I don't know how old he is. All I know is he's old enough to drive, so I have some hope that he's not, ya know, really young. I hope he's older than me, but if he's at least 17...lol.

*sigh* He's very quiet...I've never even talked to him...but he's a very cute Blue Sash, and I can't stop thinking about him.

He was not there tonight, but his brother was. *pout* He should be there tomorrow night. The chances of that are good.

The chances I talk to him? Not so great. I'm so freaking shy. Gaah!!! *pulls hair*

So in other news. My mom and I took Norman (my doggie) for a drive today. I had to check out fiesta island for my bonfire saturday, so we took him along. He's so cute. I love him.

I think I've found a good spot on the island. It should be fun...I'll take blankets, a cooler, stuff for smores, a boombox (yeah...I still call it a boombox...in fact, I still HAVE an honest to God "marketed as" Boombox) Cd's... I'm excited. I hope all my favorite people come! haha. Actually, most of the people I invited are coming, so I'm glad.
N, D, B, J, L, K, C, J, D, T, S, myself...lol. M and possibly N for a short time.

Haha. I am miss vague.

So, we went to La Quinta. That was fun. It rained a lot, lightning, thunder, etc. so less swimming than I'd hoped. And I gained four (@$%#&^*) pounds. But it was fun. M and N and their folks came up on Friday and hung out with us (whoo!) and we had lots of fun, that included:
Drinking orange cream things from TGIF's...alcohol. haha.
Showering. bwaha.
"Swimming"
Talking
Eating
Cuddling
Devulging secrets.
and etc.

Twas fun times. I can't wait for our road trip...it's either going to be the funnest thing ever or one of us is going to end up dead. Either way...


I'm sweaty, stinky, and kinda erg-ed that there are no women's gymnastics tonight!, so I'll go shower.
Later, loves.
 
I talk to myself
08.08.04 (10:06 am)   [edit]
I just hit my knee. OW.

So, Thank the Almighty Ambien gods but I slept from 1 am to 9:45 this morning. WHEEEEE *does twirls* That's almost 9 hours people, in the right slot of time!

*happy sigh* Sleep! whoo. And I woke up myself. With no alarm, no mom "helping"... :)

This is uber good news.

So I got up, cleaned my room a bit, and am now down here checking my FL.
Nicole and Marie and their fam is coming out for Dinner, and I'm glad. It should be fun.

My room is messy and I need to eat and shower. Random!

I'm still tired, which is making me twitch, but I can't expect miracles from one night.

Anyway, later. I'm out. :)
 
I'm anything but ORDINARY
07.30.04 (11:13 am)   [edit]
time: 11:17 am
mood: evasive *que mission impossible theme music*
music: lets go find some! (*time passes*) Vindicated, off the Spider-Man 2 soundtrack

Re-reading my last entry, I swear it may be a possibility that I could be borderline manic-drepressive. It’s weird…up one day, down the next, repeat…

So I need to figure out how to make some money. The first response to that would be the easiest, “well, work, you dork.” Which makes sense on the surface. The problem however, is that I hate the work I do for my parents’ business. It’s a “desk job” that requires scanning, filing, etc. etc. This is not what I want to do. Maybe I do need to get my head out of my ass, but seriously, I hate doing this kind of thing.

The problem is, though, I’m not sure what else I can do. Yes, I could go get an outside job, but it still wouldn’t be the one I want to be doing. I either want to be making money by selling my written works (…which, if we don’t include the poetry, are as of yet unwritten) or by selling my photography. The second option there is a real one. Problem number X: I have no idea how to start that out. I know very little about business… I don’t know all the much about photography except how to take the literal picture. I don’t develop them myself yet, as I don’t know how (learning this semester). I’m not sure how I’d sell them…team up with a coffee house? Get a studio? See…I really don’t know. I want to…like, want to to the degree of salivating over that option. This is what I want to do. I want to travel the world, take great photo’s, and sell them to support myself. That is my plan. Of course, like the person I am, I want it to be happening NOW. I don’t want to wait till I’m out of college, till I know WHAT I’m doing…I just want to get started already.

Anyway. The reason I bring it up is I’m, by the 20th of this month, $984 in debt. Why? How can a teenager who doesn’t have a credit card or spend loads of cash be in THAT much debt? Well, I got my license in December of 2002, and decided that, one way or another, I was going to get a new Toyota Matrix. My parents and I came up with the plan of how to get it. I’d save money, put down half the down payment, then pay half the insurance and payment every month.

I worked hard. I worked at our local fair for nearly its entire run, and made $1400. I added that to the $400 I’d saved, matched by my parents, and we put the down-payment on my $17,000 (with taxes included) baby on July 7th (’03). For a few months, I still had the money to pay half the payments. Well, I don’t really have a continuous job, so therefore I don’t have a continuous supply of income. For 6 months or so, I’ve had next to zilch. My parents are luckily not sweating me about it, but its something that’s on my mind. Now with college starting, how am I going to have time to work? I’m taking 16 units…stress stress stress.

Anybody have any advice? A legal way to make a quick buck that requires little time? (hahhahaha…I’m so funny)

So today I’m going to be cleaning my room, continuing the nothing that I’m doing now (sitting on my butt! What a lovely butt it is too…), and who knows what else. Tomorrow I may go see Spider-Man 2 with my parents, after hanging out with my grandma and my uncle’s cat (O_o…) for a few hours.

Anyway. God, I’m really weird sometimes. I feel completely and utterly random right now.

Love to all, peace,
-Kells
 
You keep being taught
07.27.04 (10:17 pm)   [edit]
but you never learn

Time: 10:44 pm
Mood: really kinda bitchy
Music: none

I should really get it through my head to just write these in Word when I'm on my computer. When I KNOW my computer is sick...I'm removing files, running fucking programs left and right to remove what some fuckwad thought would be fun to think up, you REALLY think I'd get it through my thick SKULL to write it up in Word.

Yeah. Had a huge long, pouring my heart out entry written, when the computer froze. WMP was still working, heh, so I still had coldplay in my ears, but it wouldn't even restart. So I manually shut the bitch down and I don't even care to start it up again. It can just be dead for the rest of the night. Why do people make up viruses? If you're that freaking lonely, get a prostitute.

Okay. so my whole "not holding back in the blog" thing is going well. I've felt like I completely censor myself, and it's annoying to me, so I'm not going to do it anymore.

The last few days have been busy, busy, busy. Tuesday the 20th was our Sash test, and both of us passed. We’re now yellow sashes. It was nerve racking, and we sucked (we watched the video of it later…both my parents were there and my mom taped us), but we passed. Now I’m wishing we hadn’t, cause yellow seems to be hard. The first yellow sash class for us was tonight, and …it was not easy. Then, our first private lesson with new material (which has been moved from 6:30 to 8:30...making it more difficult) was tonight as well, and it was not good. I was not doing well, kept getting told to keep my eyes up (which is hard and I wasn’t doing it), falling all over myself… At the end I was barely keeping my tears at bay, which is not something that has happened in kung fu for about 5.5 months. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Maybe that time of the month is upon me again…who knows. Either way, not a good night.

So, then, on Thursday I took my placement (3.5 hours of my life!…), thought I’d lost my keys on campus… I guessed my way through half the math (the intermediate algebra test) and did really well, or at least I thought, on the English. Finally got that out of the way, which was good, as registration was…

Friday, the next day. Got up at about 7:25, went downstairs, credit card ready, and got all of my classes that I’d obsessed about the night before. Photography I, Theater 100, Theater 131, Philosophy 112, English 126 (as long as they take my AP credit), and, when wait list starts 8/9, Art 159 (photog lab practice). Not wait listed on any of them! Then, after I’d registered, I went to school to get my results. Got the highest English you can (120...so I’m confused as to what it really means…I think, with AP, I don’t have to take it, and as far as I know can move around the order in which I take them after 122. I hope), and then got a pretty good Math score as well (120-178...much higher than the 90 I was expecting). So, I’ve got all my classes. I’m excited…a little nervous as to how I’m going to balance this (esp. since I need to work too…gah!!!) but I think it’ll work out alright, and if not, I can drop classes. The only thing that sucks is if I’m going to drop some, I’ll be wanting to drop theater 100, but, if I drop 100, I have to drop 131, since they have to be taken concurrently. 131 is intermediate acting, while 100 is “fundamentals of theater”…blah. But we’ll see.

Saturday. My mom and I went to see Train. They rocked the fucking house. 2500 people or so at Viejas…it was awesome. They played for 2.5 hours (damn, my legs hurt after that. “Standing room only”) with no opening act, and were awesome. So charismatic, very very good (best guitar solo’s I’ve ever heard) and funny (lead singer: “Hey, who wants to take 3 minutes with me and go to Cold Stone?” (which was next door) *turns to others in band* “Not you guys, you’re working…”) If you like them on the CD, you’ll love them live.

Sunday, the Cants came over and had dinner with us. I was a brat. Sometimes, I can’t balance the “Kelly with friends” and the “kelly with family.” I’m going to be working on that. It annoys the hell out of me, and I feel like I’m not showing my true self to either my friends or my family. They’re going to La Quinta with us (for 4 days, 3 nights) in a week or two and it’ll be my own trial of sorts. To be completely real the whole time. We’ll see. I think if I put effort into it I can do it.

So that pretty much leads me to today. Which was doing a little bit of work (30 minutes on the website), taking files off my computer, sleeping, lunch with mom, then kung fu. And I’m in a bad mood, depressed, grouchy…and I’m not srue why. It really could be “my little friend” ( I hate the “secret” ways of saying period. How stupid are they? Don’t get them.) is on “its” way but I guess only time will tell with that one. What, some people pay attention to when they’re due? Heheh...not me.

Anyway, this little bratty butt is going to go to bed. I’ll close with a quote from “Anyway” by Kent Keith, which I just started reading.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

Hugs, peace,
-Kelly
 
I'm gonna live where the green grass grows
07.23.04 (7:21 pm)   [edit]
watch my corn pop up in rows
every night be tucked in close to you
-Tim McGraw

time: 7:44 pm on a light, sunny Friday in July
mood: strange
music: none

So I'm back from the trip. Made it back at around 4 pm on Monday. It was very fun. We went to the grand canyon and saw a lot of interesting things...got to hang out with my aunt (ex-aunt to be nice and anal about it) and then we headed into New Mexico, where we decided to stay in Albuquerque. All I can really say is...when you cross the California border...strange things start occuring to your brain. For example, my cousin and I, who never, NEVER listen to country music, developed a strange need to listen to it, that lasted until...okay so we're STILL listening. The madness! Also, a strange need for cowboy hats happened as well. We got those in Albuquerque. I kept a list of all of the strange, odd things we saw, and really, it was quite a long list for two states.
We started to get quite perturbed with Arizona while we were trying to get to Williams, I'll tell you that. So the list started as a "Why Arizona is so fucking screwed up" kind of thing, and turned into a fun momento of all the weird things we saw along the way.

Cali-'Zona
*Three names for one freeway. - One of the reasons we got so lost and ended up not driving around Phoenix, but straight through it.
*"Table Mesa Road" - 'nuff said.
*the I-10 "W' when the direction we were going was North.
*A pelican 30 + miles from water on the Cali/Zona border. - Apparently the people aren't the only stupid things... ;)
*Frontage roads with no exits. - We got stuck on a frontage road that was, for the first half of it, a one way. Then, to get to the freaking Chevron (which was why we were off the freeway to begin with) we had to drive through major construction...dirt.... We kept thinking "there has to be a way to get back on the freeway! It's a frontage road!!" Yeaah.
*"Cracker" Barrel. - Us Californians and our perverted minds. Of course the thing that pops into our heads is "CRACKER" (the running joke "I bet there aren't any black people there...)
*Everybody Poops - At the Grand Canyon, we were running out of topics. Obviously.
*Everybody farts. - after eeating Arizona food for two days.
*"Pie, Pie, Me oh My." - WE had PIE!
*Chasing away ravens, running from bees. - an irony? The ravens wanted the food...but the bees wanted us. At the Grand Canyon.
*Bold Squirrels - that needed to be physically hit (not hard! they were little) to get them to leave. It was like with a bunny rabbit...smack it on the nose...thats what my aunt had to do. :lol:
*Contemplating "death by Grand Canyon - jump" ~ morbid. - on the drive...we hadn't hit el centro and we're like "damn , that'd suck...what if you didn't die...and then the vultures came..." yeah.
*Ahmish Kicthen. - a random sign in the middle of no where. This wasn't far from the pelican.
*Sequence. - a Fun Card-Board game! some of the stuff on the list is very random.
*Chicken Hat...or Dog?!?! - We were driving behind a truck and we coulda sworn it was a dog. Well, we passed it, and like the dorks we are were staring, and it was a person wearing a chicken hat (ya know, with the head and tail feathers?) sideways.

'Zona-New Mexico
*"Groendyke Trucking" - is there a lesbian in the cab? - we were sleep deprvied and bored. I swear that's how it was spelled.
*New Mexico - NEW HELL!!! - that was after getting stuck in Santa Fe, which I decided was populated because people. couldn't. leave!
*No road/street signs. - Seriously. We'd drive by a road and be like "hmm..i wonder if that was the one...who knows!!!"
*Convetion in Santa Fe - no rooms?! - We got stuck in a huge storm, thunder and lightening and buckets of rain and all, and so we decided we weren't gonna try to get to Arizona (this is on the way back) and we had to stay in Santa Fe. Except, of the 25 or so hotels we called, all the ones in the AAA book under $100...there weren't any rooms. "Whats the nearest place with a room?" "Albuquerque." An hour away.
*Awesome lightening.
*Never gonna leave Albuquerque. - we ended up in the same hotel as the first night, in the same room.
*"Happy Valley Road" because you're out of Phoenix. - Yeah, Phoenix sucks.
*Montezuma's Castle. - Very cool! And only $3 to see....and unlike Erin thought, it was not just a hole in the cliff miles away...hehe.
*"World Famous Dateland!!" Three buildings. - too funny. So many world famous things in Arizona! ;)
*I-25...are we going North or South?!!? - more infamous "no fucking SIGNS!" in Nex Mexico problems.
*"Can't miss shiprock.." ...oh yes you can... :? .. - apparently it was right as you get into New Mexico....*shrugs*
*Tipping hats to truckers...another meaning?!!? - I was tipping my cowboy hat until Erin said not to..they were following us.
*Aliens at Gila Bend. - We had stopped at a shell (or mobile..we dont know) on the way to Williams...on the way back through...we couldn't find it! O_o...
*Bathtub in the middle of the desert. - my cousin and her artistic ideas.
*Entombed in a plastic paper weight. - we read a funny article about a guy who loved the ones with scorpians, so he thought he'd get entombed in one when he died. (Obviously a satiracle/sarcastic writer, but funny nonetheless)
*Swollen tongue in Albuquerque, and only Albuquerque. - No, my cousin isn't crazy...O_o...she thinks it was the "radiation." :lol:
*Miraculous Stairway - carved from one piece of wood. - We are such smartasses, and no we don't really think that.
*Everyone singing "Wasting Away Again in Margaritaville" in Lamy, NM. - We took a train ride and at the end, it was an impromptu concert! I don't know the song, so I smiled and took pictures. haha.
*Good thing we had stampede strings!! - On our hats (cowboy!)...very windy in Lamy.
*Free drinks on the train. - The bartender was hitting on Erin.
*good BBQ.
*First sunset, Santa Fe. - It'd been cloudly and rainy in Arizona.
*"Where's Buckeye?" - my parents reaction. It's outside of Phoenix if anyone cared to know. Yeah, I didn't know before either. haha.
*Swimming in Buckeye. - finally, some form of exercise besides singing and walking. haha.
*Tune to 1610 AM Meteor Crater and Wilcox..."A Town in Motion!" - Because everyone drriiiiives through it...like Yuma too.

So yes, there's the list. I'll write about everything ELSE that's happened since tomorrow. This entry is already too long. *hugs*
-Kells
 
Come on get happy! It's a song that we're singing...
07.13.04 (11:03 pm)   [edit]
time: 11:54 pm
mood: GOOD!
music: none

I'm leaving tomorrrooooow!!! I'm excited, but rushed. I hope everything goes welll....no car problems or such. I'm nervous about no kung fu for a week, but I'm going to try to practice in the hotel room. I'm gonna miss my parents! And my brother! I don't think I've ever vacationed away from them...so this shall be new. I love them. :) Anyway, still really happy about that 5 on the exam...hehehe...and feeling pretty darn good about the year to come. love to all, peace,
-kelly
 
ow
07.13.04 (9:35 am)   [edit]
time: 10:00 am
mood: sooorrre my legs!
music: none

So, it's been a while. Yesterday was...interesting, and I had lots of goods and annoyances.

Annoyance: Bro's girlfriend staying an extra four hours, when we had things to do.
Annoyance: Parents LETTING her stay, when we had things to do dammit!
Annoyance: Being a chouffer to the bro and his girlfriend.

Great: Seeing darling Nicole.
Good: Seeing Harry Potter 3.
Good: Getting out of the house.
Great: Getting a five (1-5) on my AP exam. AHA *goes nuts*

So, it's been an interesting 24 hours to say the least...some good, some really annoying, and some really good. I love my friends...and the results from that AP exam really got me out of my funk for a bit. :lol:

Today me mom and I are getting me ready to go on my road trip with Erin. I love my parents, but they can annoy me (as seen yesterday). But...ya know, they're not too bad...hehe. I love them...and my brother. :roll:
I need jeans...I need to pack my car...I need to check the first aid kit...I need to go to Kung Fu! gah. and I need to clean my room. And get a good night sleep. Hehe. It should be fun, and I'll be back Monday, but from Monday to Tuesday evening, I'll be doing Kung Fu and not much else. Next Tuesday is the test for yellow. I'm nervous, but my instructor says that both my bro and I will do fine. I hope he rights and I don't fuck up anything too bad.

Alright, well, love ya all, later (Monday!)
-Kelly
 
"All good things are wild, and free."
07.04.04 (12:25 pm)   [edit]
- Henry David Thoreau

time: 1:05 pm
mood: good
music: none

Last night my dad and I stayed up until 2 am talking about the current state of the world's politics and situations. We discused things such as gay marriage (concentration on the word marriage), the war in Iraq, who the future presidency should go to, etc. It was quite informative and I learned that a lot of things I feel strongly about my father feels strongly about in the complete opposite way. Doesn't make me love him less, just makes part of me want to work harder in convincing him that I'M right. :wink:

We decided on a way to "solve" the gay marriage "problem" as well as who should be president. I think Kerry should, while he thinks Bush should. We also decided that if any generation is going to turn this wayward world around, it'll be mine. Which I fully believe in. We've got the mind-power and availability to information to do it. Will we? I don't know.

If that isn't American, I don't know what is. Staying up till the late hours of the morning discussing the future of this country and the world with your father and trying to come to terms with each others' views as well as try to solve the problems...It was great. I think this impromptu conversation couldn't have been better placed.

Happy 228th birthday, little U.S.A. You have your problems, like any other youngin', but in the end, I have faith in you.

Right now my brother and I are going to head in to get some fireworks from my uncle. SHHHH... :-D Later today my family and I are going to go to dinner in a beautiful part of the city and then see the fireworks afterward. Should be fun.

All of you, have safe, fun, wonderful days. *hugs* to all. Peace,
-Kelly
 
Mahalo Nui Loa
06.30.04 (3:34 pm)   [edit]
thank you very much

time: 4:26 pm
mood: um, whatever
music: people in the house talking


so i'm home from hawaii!! It was fantastic and too much to put in here! so this is a "i'm home safe" blogging. I will say a couple of things...I love the culture, I love how clean it is, I hate flying, and I am glad we're home, but I wouldn't mind going back :wink: We're going to the fair, maybe, if everyone gets off their asses. It's so much fun. I tell my dad "we have to go!" and he's like "we'll get stuck in traffic." It was his idea to go. Whatever.

I don't know what we're going to do for July 4th but I have a shirt. So the essentials are taken care of. lol *dork*

Then sometime after that I'm going on my trip with the cuz. That should be fun. And throughout all this time: kung fu.

July 20th we are testing for our yellow sash. AAHHHHH nerves. nerves i say!! We'll se how that goes...happy thoughts happy thoughts.
anyway, loves, i shall go.

aloha,
Kelly
 
1 part sugar, 1 part spice
06.15.04 (8:40 am)   [edit]


How to make a neobaby
Ingredients:

3 parts competetiveness

5 parts crazyiness

3 parts beauty
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lustfulness


Username:


Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

hehe. I like that. Not entirely acurate, but cute.

So today we're running around getting ready...getting all packed, getting the dog to the boarders, last minute cleaning...that kind of stuff. We're leaving for Hawaii (Hawaii!!) Wednesday. I've got to pack the rest of my suitcase then after finding out the size of the carry-on, possibly have to go buy and then pack one. We bought snorkle gear last night, and I got amazing deals on shorts and pants at anchor blue (two shorts, one pair of pants, one boys-board shorts : $62. go to anchor blue people! lol) I've got to clean my room, wash the dog, take him for a walk (?), finish my thank you's, ...so much to do!! I can't really believe its on Wednesday ya know?

Yesterday I went to High Tea with my cousins and Grandma for my Grandma's 80th birthday. It was so nice. We had great tea, and little sandwiches and little deserts and it was really fun.

Saturday and Sunday I worked at the fair. I did a double Saturday and the first shift on Sunday. Made $170 that I intend to spend in Hawaii. hehe. Whee money. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be, but probably because I knew I wasn't working the other 19 days. haha.

Yeah. So I'm excited and I'm not sure if I'm taking my computer or not or if I'll have internet access, but if I find a cafe maybe I'll make a post in here. From across the Pacific!! :D Love you all

peace, stay safe,
-kells
 
A Whole New World
06.11.04 (12:52 am)   [edit]
time: 1:25 am
mood: everything
music: nothing

So.

I'm a high school graduate. :) The graduation was fabulous. The speeches..well, let me say, the speeches by the STUDENTS ;) were good and entertaining. It was weird though, just sitting up there, having everyone stare at you. haha. I started laughing a few times because I had a clear view of my brother and every time I'd look he'd have this big ass grin on his face. It's going to look like I was laughing during speeches, but I wasn't. lol.

I was also biting the inside of my mouth and my lips. GAH! One bad habit to the next. So that will be immortilized forever as well. doik i am. a doik. But so many of my fabulous friends came! gah. I love them all so much.

So, the ceremony: Aunt Andy, Cailin, Marina, Nicole and Kyle, Jody, Nicole, Marie, Fatimah and her mom, my mom, my dad, Josh, my grandma, my neighbor Ethel, Sara, Anu.

: ) And, to my utmost shock I got the loudest applause both times I was introd'd. And my mommy and my teacher made a speech and they both almost started crying. We all held it together though. haha. It was so great to see all of these people I've known for either 7 or less than a year graduating and hearing their parents or teachers talking about them...it was so nice and sweet. I was so proud of all of them. And just the fact that my family was there, and my friends were there...gah. If I ever doubt how much I'm loved I guess I'll just whip out the video.

Then after talking with my teachers and getting way too many balloons and flowers and the banner and everything into the car, we (Jess, Sara, Eden and I) all headed to get my ice cream cake then go back to my house. And at my house was ...lots of people...but namely NATASHA!!!! And me and Eden freaked out. It was almost a reunion. We need to grab Mitch and have a real physics reunion. haha..good times, good times. And then also at my house was..well everyone that was at the ceremony (except fatimah) and more cousins! and more family members! and more people! and cake and pizza and presents and flowers and balloons and who knew graduating was THAT big of a deal? Certainly not me.

I got some wonderful gifts, as well as beautiful flowers, a fuck load of money, and the most wonderful book full of other people's memories of me that I'll always treasure. But most importantly I got to see all of those people, some I haven't seen in a long time. It was a most fantastic day. Crazy, but more than I could ever hope for. And it's now over. And yeah, I'm crying.

It's really over. High school is now in the past. The safety net of reputation and knowing faces is gone. I'm out in the real world now. The scary part? I think I'm ready. heh. (So crying)

I really don't think I could love my family (esp my mom and dad and brother) and friends more than I do right now. It's completley unspeakable.

Tomorrow is two graduations for two of my bestest friends. Fatimah, and Anu, both at the same place but at different times! Oi vey! lol. Then Saturday, a double at the fair. Am I insane? Why yes. Sunday, first shift, then my grandma's 80th birthday party. I need to frame her pictures... Busy weekend. Tea with cousins and grandma monday, then...I'm on a plane on Wednesday. holy crapola. to hawaii. two weeks in paradise, baby.

God, ya know, some of the things written in this here book are so beyond...I'm crying thinking about them, but one (ONE!) of many many many that really got to me was this one, and I'll end it with this
(Congrats to my fellow seniors. It's over. : ) whoohoo! Love, peace, goodnight)

This is the gift the fairy gave you: You will always love and be loved.
 
Wish cast into the sky
06.05.04 (9:11 pm)   [edit]
I'm moving on

time: 11:26 am Sunday (I'm cheating here)
mood: sore
music: my printer

Today is the day of many things to be done. Somehow, I have to print at least 75 programs for graduation (which consists of 3 pages, two of those double-sided), then do at least 2 chapters of transfer for the economics work, and clean my room.

One really wouldn't think it possible that one person has the amount of clothes one would find in my room. It looks like I had 3 closets explode. My clothing multiplies in the wash, but I never get back the same amount of socks. :roll:

So, yeah, a busy day. I also have to book it over to Vons or Ralphs and get Anu a corsage! Because we are getting each other corsages for graduation. Because we are dorkies, but it's okay, because we're dorkies togethah! :lol:

My family and I might go to Souplantation today. I am happy! I love Souplantation. heheh. I want to see Harry Potter again. It's been a whole day!!!

So yes, Harry Potter. I was...hmm..it's weird. I loved the movie, I thought it was great, but the stuff the left out was inCREDibly important for plot. Incredibly so. The three (Dan, Rupert, Emma - Harry, Ron, Hermione) are amazingly improved as far as their acting is concerned. Fabulous. Also, Gary Oldman and David Thewlis (Sirius and Lupin, respectively) were both fantastic, and I wasn't sure how they'd do in the roles. Because, Lupin! He's the BEST Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher yet! And they cast him well. So I was happy. And, ya know, I don't know why I doubted Gary Oldman, because he was fantastic. Just the right amount of crazy, and an immediate connection with Lupin and Harry.

I realize I sound like a complete nerd, and I don't care.

Also, my reaction to the new Dumbledore may not have been...um...the best? (Me: "they should have just killed Dumbledore off ...*pout*") So yeah. Not liking the new guy. He has no twinkle in his eye!! :( He will not be Dumbledore, he is just a wizard. */end dramatics*

My other complaint of the movie, besides the INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT STUFF THEY LEFT OUT ABOUT THE PATRONUS AND MARAUDERS MAP cough, was NOT ENOUGH RON! We've got a whooole lot of Hermione and Harry ,and that's fine, but I wanted more Ron!! However, the scenes he was in were great, and I'm just hoping those deleted ones have lots of Ron.

About 15 minutes into the movie this was my brain: Am I ashamed? Yes. anyway:

Kelly's Brain : Hmm...how old is Daniel Radcliff? He can't possibly be 14 ....he's just...and 14's not that bad...he doesn't look 14...he doesn't sound 14....

Bad. bad bad bad. :lol: but guh! anyway, enough.

I loved most of the stuff they added, and I loved the new cooler Hermione, even though, hey Ms. Rowling, she's not supposed to show up until book 4! Come on now. :P

So, overall, really good. Very confusing if you haven't read the book, as there are MAJOR plot holes, but it was entertaining and I loved the performances. :)

I'm on page 18 of the first page of the programs. *sigh* getting there! slowly, but surely.

I should go, and I might write again later. We shall see, shan't we precious? Yes yes, we shall.

*blinks* anyway. :wink:

later, peace,
)Kells(
 
And here's to you, Mrs. Robinson
06.04.04 (3:55 pm)   [edit]
time: 4:42 pm
mood: headachey and starving
music: none!

I'm going to see harry potter! wheee.
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That is my desktop at the moment. We're going to the 8:30 show. Yay!

Also, a new look! I think I like it, even though I'm not done with the header yet. I have a new name and header ("Closing walls and ticking clocks.")

So, I'll probably edit this later, and gabble alllll about the movie. anyway. I'm starving. have good days,
-kells
 
I love love you darling
06.03.04 (3:31 pm)   [edit]
time: 3:51 pm
mood: bothered by allergies
music: beach boys. in my head.

I'm posting so early! haha. I never post this early. I'm feeling very sorry for myself. So many people are going to see Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban tonight at midnight. Me? Not me. Ah, le sigh le sigh. I'm pretty sure me parents, me brother and I are seeing it tomorrow, but I'm not positive.

Today was my last EVER AP English class. Last ever. What did we do? We signed yearbooks, talked about movies, and watched "Fierce Creatures." And I really need to get over this crush. :roll: Haha! a crush I've never spoken about, and never shaaaalll. its not even really a crush. It's more like...a respect..that is a little more? I don't know. It isn't going to go anywhere, lol.

I'm going to miss my school. I'm going to miss the people. Even the people I didn't used to like, lol. I'm going to miss my ap-people, and my gov/econ-people, and my teachers, and my peggy and suzie!! : ( I'm going to miss the yearbook, and everything.

I'm into a new school with new people! Ahh how scary. heehee.

So Tuesday I couldn't do an entire 1.5 hours of kung fu.
:? Which is not normal for me. I got through 45 minutes, and then I felt like I was going to pass out, and I had to sit out the rest of group and all of kicking. It was sort of asthma, but then, I wasn't wheezing. I was just hella dizzy. It was really really bad. Yesterday I went to the gym, and I was completely fine. Go figure. It was scary for a minute, cause I thought "okay I'll just stand here and it will go away" and it didn't. *shakes head*

Today was my last econ test, then last ap (as up above), and some kung fu. I am going to try to get through an hour. :? Just kicking and white sash. Then tomorrow I'll go to the gym and...see Harry Potter! Hopefully. Kinda sucks cause Nicole was going to go, and she can't, and miss Anu-nu is a busy bee. Who knows. It's not like I'm seeing it once :wink:

What else what else...I've got the ceremony program to do, then I've got to make up a for sure song list to give to the school (cause they don't trust us! :lol:) and I've also got to type up all of my Economics work. Down with economics work! haha. Also, down with pina colada flavors! ahem.

So...I'm not looking forward to kung fu in "a sauna" as the instructors call the school in summer. Bah. My head! It hurts! *pooouuuuut*

Oh also! I'm anxious about flying 5 hours over water to Hawaii in June so my mom called my doctor and asked him "What shall we do with miss-paranoid?" SO he called today and said "I shall give miss-paranoid Valium."

That's right folks. I will be on VALIUM on the plane ride to (and possibly from) Hawaii. Yeah. As if I need anything else to make me more nuts. haha. It's the second biggest dose they give of the thing (2, 5, and 10 mg. so guess which one is mine!?!?!? *DORK*) So, yeah. It'll be interesting. I went and looked up all the possible drug connections and side-effects. I've had SO many bad experiences with doctor given drugs, I tell you. This one, luckily, is not connected to any of the ones I have had bad experiences with. And the side-effects, while some are scary (shakiness, difficulty breathing) aren't common. The common ones I can SO deal with: sleepiness and clumsiness. Clumsy? I'm already clumsy! But I'll sleep the whole five hours. That'd be great. :D

Yeah. So, I'm pretty sure that's it now. I think I've talked myself out. My head feels like its going to explode. This summer...oi...it's going to be SO FUN! I love allergies! haha.
*dork*
love you all, have great great days,
-Kelly
 
God only knows what I'd be without you
05.31.04 (2:03 pm)   [edit]
time: 2:27 pm
mood: *shrugs*
music: WMP playlist

Happy Memorial Day! 8)

It feels like a beach day. And I can gaurantee that about 45% of S.D. felt the same thing. heh :lol:

Yesterday I hung out with Nicole and Josh, and that was fun. Someone toilet paper'ed her house, so we cleaned it up...and then delivered retribution. :D Nothing too bad...we just put it all in a bag and dumped it all back on the person's yard. :lol: I've never been "tp-ing" before, and I've never been out past curfew without my parents actual blessing before either. We got home at about 12:45. Luckily, my parents weren't pissed (we'd been in contact and such). So it was super fun! (Snaps for staying out late! sorry, random Legally Blonde references)

I have discovered that I am truly oblivious. To guys. We (Nicole and I) were at Starbucks and I was being nice with the gu at the counter, and he was being nice back, but I didn't think anything of it. I finsih and go over to Nicky and she's like "he was SO flirting with you!" and I'm like "really?!" lol. Maybe I need to, oh I don't know, pay attention more. (He was kinda icky though. like he hadn't washed his hair in a while. lol) Anyway.

Come and go with me! whoa whoa whoa whoooaaa

I love The Beach Boys.

So my mommy got me two movies for graduation, but she forgot to hide them so I saw them. She got me Maurice, and Barefoot in the Park. LOVE! :D *hugs mommy* I'm not sure if I get them early cause I know, but damn do I want to watch Barefoot in the Park. Awesome movie, from a play. I recommend.

I need you darling, so come go with me!

I think God Only Knows would be a good song to include on the playlist for graduation.

I feel fat and blah today, and that's because I haven't worked out since...Tuesday. blah. Didn't go to Fu on Thursday, didn't go to the gym friday..etc etc. Tomorrow is Kung Fu, so I'll feel better. It's also the yearbook signing party. Must remember to bring my damn yearbook. lol. I haven't been bringing it to school. The time is escaping me. It's the last day of May! *shock*

Barbara Ann...take my hand...ba ba ba Barb Barbara Ann. Went to a dance, looking for romance, saw Barbara Ann, so I though I'd take a chance.

:D *happy sigh* so Im not sure what I'm doing today. Not much. Just hanging out. Finished my ECON! FINALLY!! WHOO!! ..I guess I was more excited that I thought, cause I wasn't planning on doing that in all caps. lol. whoo! Finis. except I need....to read the chapters, but who cares?! And I also need to type all the answers up. I think I can get a b on the test and be fine. hopefully. I think. lol.

Alright, I think I'm going to go do something. I'm not sure what, but I'll find something. Later, and happy memorial day! *hugs, peace, love*
-Kelly
 
Give me heart, give me soul...open up your eyes
05.27.04 (8:05 pm)   [edit]
time: 9:05 pm
mood: tiiiired
music: Politik, Coldplay

I am so tired. I got up the earliest I've gotten up in a while today...which was 8:09 am. Pathetic. really pathetic. Last semester, every single Monday and Wednesday I was getting up at 6:30 am. I guess it was because I had something to get up for...lol. (Acting!) So that's how I'll manage college. Plan the morning classes as something I like. hehe :roll:

I didn't even go to kung fu tonight. The excuse? Oh, I have school. I do have school, but it's not due for a couple of weeks. I just need to take the econ test before I graduate... ya know, that kind of thing. All that's left is for real...Economics. I'm gonna bullshit something for AP this month. We've been having parties and watching movies since the test. I'll write a poem. : )

I got a few new CD's on Tuesday, as well as Return of the King. (
So, on Tuesday, ...a lot of seniors showed up to help with the banner. And it looks absolutely awesome. I'm really proud of everyone. Honestly, it did shock me. I guess I really a bit too much on email...but yeah, wasn't expecting two of the people to be there. So it was a good surprise. We just added the names to the banner of the peeps who weren't there. hehe. :wink: they can deal.

It's all glittery and has paint on it and "Class of '04" and everyone's names. It's cool. It's also got some quotes (From me a random "Got (Kung) Fu?") and some math equations. I kid you not. They sparkle.

Wow, I am tired. I hope I'm not getting sick.

So we went to the eye doctor on Wednesday. Turns out I still have nearly perfect eyesight. Yay! The doc can't do anything about the trouble seeing at night. Boo! Oh well. I got some eyedrops for my dry eyes though.
/random

What else what else...whatched RotK. Gah. *love love*

Harry Potter and the greatest book yet movie comes out June 4th. Which is scarily scarily close. Way too close. Because 6 days after that? Graduation. But I'm excited. Whoo! 8)

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm going back to the start.

So I think we've got a good amount of songs for the grad before/after ceremony thingie whatever. There are a couple of other ideas floating around too. So, as slow as it may be coming together, I think it's doing just that. : )


Am I part of a cure
or am I part of the disease?

So far we have:
Where the streets have no name
For those about to rock
Across the universe
Hello Goodbye
Whne I'm 64
Twist and Shout
Penny Lane
When I grow up to be a man
Slide
99 red balloons
The Great Beyond
1979
Tonight Tonight
Graduation Day
Highland Cathedral
Crazy
Clocks
Here's to the Night
Freebird
Wild World
Free Falling

And it's still open. So we'll see. :) Love you all, goodnight,
-Kells

p.s. oh yeah...we (I lol) got Chris to sing the anthem! damn hell yeah.
 
Here's to the nights we felt alive
05.23.04 (10:31 pm)   [edit]
here's to the tears you know you cried

time: 10:25 pm
mood: remeniscent
music: none...memories of prom music in my head

Yesterday, or, rather last night, at prom, I kept thinking "Damn. I wish these were my friends of four years...I wish these were my teachers chaperone-ing...I wish this was my school prom." It wasn't, and I had fun nonetheless, but still...the want was definitely there. Of course, we'd have to mix at least the senior and junior classes (HAH if not another entire small school) to make it worth anything. And it would need all of the people who left. I kept looking around, wanting to see Mitchell, and Eden, and Michael, and Dustin, and Camelia, and Michael, and Ryan, and Fatimah, and Tasha (even tho she's '05), and Jessica and Leo ('05 and '06)...see what I mean? My senior class is 12 people. So, yeah, we'd need some others. lol. It's something I wish I had..the "normal" school-ness of a bigger class...more friends...grad and prom with my people. I've got graduation..but..eh. Most people have left. I've got...4, really, whom I know well. Enough.

Makes me go "hmm." I'm really done with highschool though. So done. I want to be full-time Grossmont (GRIFFINS! WHOO!) yesterday. If I were going for an AA I'd be class of 2008. I'll be...if I'm lucky...class of 2010 at this rate...and if it takes 5, I'll be class of 2011. With a Bachelor's in Creative Writing, from University of California Riverside. Riversiiiiiide. Man, you have no idea how excited I am. Away from home, in a gorgeous campus, on my own... I'm excited in that kinda exhilerated / terrified way. lol. No. Actually, that's a lie.

I'm not terrified. I'm not more than an itsy bit nervous at this point. I'm sure the month before I leave I'll be freaking unbearable, but we'll see in 1-2 years. :roll: I'm so excited.

And, the possibility of Natasha coming to Grossmont next year is an awesome one. I miss her! My physics buds...gah, all but Eden have left. Mitch! Tasha! wah. lol. Mitchell I've known for...since about 2nd grade, I think. a LONG time. I miss him. :( I keep thinking "he's supposed to be graduating with me!" But, he isn't.

So, I'm just kinda hanging out. My week this week looks like: economics/gym/kung fu, repeat. I wanted to be all up on my econ, but then...eh shit happened, and prom stuff, and I lost a week. I just need to make myself work. It's not hard, its just taxing and time-taking for me. Blah! And I hate it, which makes it more so. But, I like my hair. Totally unrelated yes, but it is true.

Another totally unrelated observation. I know more people who are mean than honestly nice (really care about what they say how it will affect you, etc). Like, I know it's easier to just be a bitch/prick, but why? I try...try...to be nice and think about what I say before I do. And sometimes it doesn't work. But if I jsut meet someone, I'm not like "eh, hi." (From recent experience.) That annoys me. A lot. It takes so much to be nice? Guess so.

Completely unrelated but one senior responded. This shocked me. lol. One response! yay!

I think I got bit on my head.

If I didn't mention it before, Josh and I both passed our oral sash test. PHEW. I was nervous. 93 questions, no studying. Yay! Now we work on more techniques, then we work on next goal: YELLOW SASH!

My head hurts. It hurts. I hate that. Its on the right side, so I assume it is a sinus headache, as I think it'd be all over otherwise. hmm. *shrugs*

heh. Weird noises happening in my backyard. ..And now they've stopped.

So yeah, I'm reading four books or so right now. Thier Eyes Were Watching God, We Were Soldiers Once, and Young, Titus Andronicus, and Zoo Story (which is actually a play). Haaah.. I cannot do one thing at a time. I think it may be impossible. So, the reading, the watching tv thing, the not getting enough sleep thing, the kung fu thing, the working out thing, the running around town thing, the up until last night prom thing...all of these things have kept me from the economics thing. Which is biting me in the butt tomorrow. I want to go to the gym too, and I neeed to do about a chapter and a half tomorrow. REALLY SHOULD. lol.

bah.

My life feels like an in between. I'm just..waiting. :? Which..I hate. And it's up to me to change. Get my ass up and do my shit and then I'm on to the next thing. I get stuck, but its because I procrastinate, and so I get stuck and don't move on (its that whole "one thing at a time" problem I have.) I want to be moving moving moving and then I stop...get stuck behind something and until I MOVE it, it stays, I stay, it turns into an ugly masochistic kind of relationship.

BAH
baggle baggl baggle. SO tomorrow, I AM GOING TO DO ECON. YES. And go the gym. And maybe, maybe even do something fun.

:::::

"I seem to spend my life
just waiting for the chorus
Cause the verse is never nearly
good enough"
-Robbie Williams, Singing for the Lonely.

:::::

Night,
Kelly
 
To the windows...to the wall
05.22.04 (10:37 pm)   [edit]
till the sweat drip down my balls

time: 11:23 pm
mood: GREAT! My feet hurt!!!! :D
music: HIP HOP IN MY HEAD, with a side of salsa music

I just got back from prom! THis shall be quick. It was SO MUCH FUN!!! EEEEEEE I had SO much fun, and the music was awesome, and I LOOKED SO FREAKING HOT!! I felt like the hottest girl there. Or at least top ten. THAT is something coming from me. Man, hot hot guys there too. I danced with a couple. So, my parents just got home, and I'm talking to my bestest friend in the world for the first time in two weeks, and I am bubbly and jumping and bouncy and so excited, cause damn, I had SO MUCH FUN.
I wish there had been more dancing, (it got going pretty late), but i had fun, and they had REALLY GOOD dessert and fruit, an dthe whole thing was fabulous.

THANKS Bridget, I had a blast. WHEEEEEEeeeeee....

I'm gonna go!! AND tell everyone about it!! GOODNIGHT, HUGS,
-Kelly
 
Pissed
05.21.04 (10:09 pm)   [edit]
time: 10:42
mood: aggravated
music: We Dont Need No, Education... in my head, over and over... Teacher leave those kids alone.

No, actually, please BEAT THEM OVER THE HEAD. I haven't gotten ONE response to the email I sent to the walking seniors about getting together Tuesday to put a banner together. I haven't even gotten an email from the person who thought UP the idea. The fuck? It's not like I'm getting anything out of this. I'm just the only one willing to do ANYTHING so I'm the emailer. I don't think they like me much. Or, maybe they just don't give a shit. But, that pisses me off. You only graduate once. You can't stop being a "I'm too good for that" senior for an hour and a half to help make a fucking banner and tell me what music you'd like to hear during your ceremony? Fuck you too. :x

I mean, come on. I don't have the phone numbers, cause otherwise I'd call them. But, not even a "I will/wont be there Tuesday" respond? What's that take, a whopping minute? Nice. Yeah. I don't know why I'm doing this. I really don't. I'm not getting anything out of it, really. Yeah, I want to make this a nice, unique-ish ceremony, cause it's MINE...ya know? Maybe not. No one in my class seems to. :x But I'm not talking, I'm not performing, etc. etc. I just want to make it more personal, but with no help, that's hard. I've gotten some ideas from one senior. ONE senior. We only have 9 walking, you think we'd be a closer class. But no. Cause it's split down the middle.

The people who think they are smart
and the People who think they are stupid, or are intimidated by the people who think they are smart.

That ^ means, our entire class is relatively smart. We've got like, 5 of us walking with academic distinction or something, but because some of the people are more outward about their brains or whatever, the others are like "ooh ,smart people, I don't want to talk to them..."

Me? I'm right in the middle. I'm not as smart as the first group, but I'm always having to tell the other group that i'm not some brilliant prodigy. I swear, it's that extreme. At least in my situation.

SO ANNOYING. GAAAH :evil:

*breathes*

So onto happier things. Tomorrow is prom. My day looks like: wake up, take a shower, get my hair cut, go pick up Bridget's corsage, come home, shit around, do my makeup, make my hair okay, get dressed, and leave by 5. Then it's dinner, then prom until like, 11 or 12 I can't remember, then home. It'll be a fun day.

I was SUPER lucky about the hair. I got my nails done Wednesday, both French tips and a pedicure (which still looks nice regardless of kung fu, yay), but hadn't decided what I wanted to do with my hair yet. So today, like the moron and optimist I am, I call up our usual guy and am like "got anything open tomorrow?" and he's like "no I'm completely booked" which, duh Kelly. But I had to try. So I go across the street to talk to our neighbor who works at a Great Clips. She says she isn't working tomorrow, but is willing to cut my hair in the morning anyway. ! *Hugs Neighbor*

I'm getting it totally chopped. Like, not ...super super short, but just below the ears. I don't want a bob, so I want a bit of a layer effect, as well as a feathering effect. I'm looking forward to it, and if it doesn't work out, oh well, I'll live, and hair grows. :)

So, yeah. I'm all agressioned out I think. Maybe. I should get to bed early so I can get up early, so I can not have HUGE ass bags under my eyes.

PERSONAL NOTE!:: SHIP ALLIE AND DAKOTA'S GIFTS ALREADY, DARNIT!

Okay, so goodnight all, and I hope all of you having prom tomorrow have a FABULOUS time and look wonderful too. Love,
-Kelly
 
Hey Mr. DJ
05.18.04 (9:08 pm)   [edit]
time: 9:48 pm
mood: I'm fine thanks!!!
music: NONE! only the voices in my head

Today was interesting. I didn't do much. Headed into school to talk about graduation, then ended up feeling like a bitch... :? ...then went to lunch with me mommy, then ran around town like a crazy person, got Bridget's corsage (yay! roses!), then came home, left nearly immediately for kung fu, went to kung fu, went to get coffee bean (mmm...green tea ice blended with soy milk!...mmm), then came home, and I still haven't showered. What is this? I do this all the time. Come home from kung fu, cool down...don't shower until late. I'm insane.

No one will ever guess what I was listening to on the way to get my brother for kung fu. No one! Except maybe a few people. But other than that, no one!!!
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the suspense is quite unbearable, no?
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The Backstreet Boys' first album! That's right. And I was totally unashamed. Hey, Mr. Dj, keep playing that song for me. Out on the floor or in my arms, she's gotta be.... Okay, no one ever claimed the lyrics were shakespeare, but the beats are GOOD and this is something I'd forgotten for years of "backstreet hate." The love has been refound. Now I'm thinking "where'd I put "Millenium??" (other backstreet album)
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So, tomorrow I'm getting my nails done (if they can glue anything on to these stubs... :? ) with my cousins. I'm getting a manicure and a pedicure, which sucks about the latter, as my feet will be disgusting by Thursday evening (Kung Fu). But, that's life, that's what all the people say, dangit.
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I think I may suffer from night blindness. It's really really difficult for me to drive at night. This is something that should be looked into. And, because I'm a freak (and darn proud) the idea of having glasses is cool. See? Freak. 8) But, moreso, the idea of not dying on the freeway at night is cool. So, to the eye doctor soon.
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We have an "oral test" coming up in kung fu, on Friday. 93 questions, and we can get "1 or 2 wrong." This must be passed in order to move on to the next stage: preparing for the next sash (YELLOW BABY YELLOW! which, on a completely unrelated note, is, according to testcafe.com, my aura color.). So, I'm nervous. Some of the questions are easy (What are crane stances used for?) Some are hard (Who were Grand Master's teachers?) So, yeah, nerves.
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I did "pretty good" on econ this month. My test averaged to 101.5 %. I guess i didn't need as many MC questions as I'd thought.
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I can't quite figure out the time zone on this thing. Tblog is confusing!! *sob*
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I'm looking forward to graduation, but more so, and this is far off, to UCR. UCR!!!! *giggles and jumps around like a monkey on speed* RIVERSIDE BABY!!! WHOOOOOOoooooooOoOOOOooo.
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I amuse myself, and really, that's a good thing. What point is there in life if not to be completely happy with your dorkiness and love yourself for it?? :D
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Goodnight, and *hugs*,
-Kells
 
Nobody leaves me any notes...
05.17.04 (10:51 pm)   [edit]
I'm totally taking this..(without permission! eep) But I loved it and thought it was quite amusing and on base with my liking of Troy. (Also, no one really reads this! lol) So, this was found at the livejournal of scoutmol and if he/she would like me to take it down, I shall.
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"I have always felt bad about how little I know about Ancient Greek literature. I know I read some of it in high school, and didn't hate it (because if I had, I would have had far more vivid memories of it – I loathed The Scarlet Letter and still can recall sections of it at will), but didn't love it either, and so it scooted out of my memory by the same route taken by most of Spanish IV.

This meant that when I walked into the movie theater this weekend, all I knew of the story was a vague recollection of the parties involved – Paris stealing Helen, the big wooden horse, and Achilles was there. And wow, was I glad! Because I just know that had I deeper understanding of the source text, the movie probably would have pissed me off. But I didn't! So I could just sit back happily and giggle at the over-the-top dialogue and sit up in my seat whenever Achilles decided to lounge about in a low-slung sarong.

Let's get the complaints out of the way first: the movie was too long, most definitely. And it sounds more insulting than I mean it to be when I say that Brad Pitt was fantastic until he started talking – but that's pretty true. I don't know if that's really his fault, though; the fact that the bulk of the actors around him spoke with English/Australian/non-Am erican accents made his Midwestern twang stand out, at least at first. But after a few minutes, I just accepted myself to the fact that Achilles was from Illinois, and let it go.

There was also the fact that the words he was asked to say were often so ridiculous that his out-of place accent didn't really matter. It seems like if there ever was a chance to take the subtle route, the screenwriters did everything in their power to avoid it. For example: Did you know that Achilles wanted his name to live on? And also, for his name not to be forgotten? And also, to be remembered? If you didn't know, the movie will tell you forty-five times!

But I can forgive all of these flaws. There's something lovable about a movie that knows what its audience wants and unashamedly gives it to them – I speak, of course, about Brad Pitt's nude scene, and Eric Bana's bare torso, and Orlando Bloom's pretty face. The girls too, of course, though I wasn't paying as much attention. Did the movie need that scene where Achilles stripped down after battle, strolled around nude in his tent, and splashed water on himself? I bet the movie would have gotten by okay without it, but I love a director (and a star! Because Brad requested it, which I learned from People magazine) who is willing to recognize what the audience is looking for in that moment, and just hand it over without asking them to be embarrassed.

(I really wish someone could do an Amelie-esque reverse camera shot of that moment in the movie, to capture the sight of every woman in the audience inching up in her seat to see better.)

At the same time, though, I loved the movie for how it subverted audience expectations in another way: that is, by telling a story with its most sympathetic characters on the side that loses. This is un-Hollywood to the extreme, and I was really quite surprised. Watching the movie, I can't believe that the creators expected the audience to identify with anyone more than we identify with Hector and his father and their doomed city. I mean, come on! Even Achilles hates the Greek army! They're the bad guys, and they win in the end. And though Achilles has a certain magnetism and tragedy about him, he's still, in the end, not the true hero of the story. Hector is. Hector is the one who lives his life with the most grace and dignity, who has the most sensible things to say, who has a family that loves him. And he dies at the hands of the movie's big star. Now that's entertainment!

I know that the credit can't completely go to the filmmakers since they're obviously operating from a pretty classic story, but anyone can tell you how thoroughly and unashamedly movies can remove the true meaning and heart of a classic story (and who knows, maybe they have done just that and I'm not aware of it because again, know next to nothing about the original story) in the quest to give the movie a typical Hollywood ending. Again, we return to The Scarlet Letter, Demi Moore's version -- perhaps the most useful horrible movie of all time, since it is such a handy reference point for people talking about horrendous film adaptations of books. Thank you, Demi!

I've read some places that the events of the movie and actions of the characters reflect modern day American attitudes more than Ancient Greek ones (for example, the recasting of Patrocles as Achilles's cousin instead of his lover [which, from what I've read here and there, is a more accurate description], and the removal of the gods from the story). To that I say: Of course it does! Movies always say more about the times they're created than the times they depict. My go-to example is always the movie Glory, which is nominally about the all-black regiment in the Civil War but features as its male lead the regiment's white leader, played by Matthew Broderick. Does the movie tell you more about the Civil War or late-1980s race relations in America? Both?

I do find that aspect of Glory problematic, and I bet a lot of people find the intrusion of 21st century American ideals onto The Iliad problematic as well, but the clincher for me with both Glory and Troy is the fact that for me, at the end of the day, the story worked. I cried at the end of both movies – a completely unexpected event when it came to Troy, which I'd giggled over through most of the movie, whispering to my friend about how silly certain lines were, only to be completely blindsided by the ending. All of a sudden, after laughing at the stupid dialogue and Orlando's earnest expression (I actually think he was pretty good in this) -- all of a sudden, I cared what happened in the movie. I think it happened after Hector died, after that great scene between Peter O'Toole and Brad Pitt -- from that point on, the movie had me. Achilles made me cry! Briseis made me cry! The fall of Troy made me cry, a little bit!

Oh, why did I write all this? All it really comes down to is the fact that I bought it. A lot of people didn't, a lot of people won't, and no amount of long-ass paragraphs on my part will make the fact that I cried at a movie most people found ridiculous less pathetic. Oh well!"

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Also, I think I'm getting sick, and I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. Anyway. Also, I'm trying a self-ban on cursing! So far, in the last 48 hours or so, I've said : shit once, crap a lot of times (too many to count)...and that's it. As you can see, it doesn't count when I TYPE it. lol. goodnight everyone, sleep tight.
-Kells